When I was in Paris this last April, visiting with family and friends, one of our conversations centered around the downfall of the company Bear Stearns. One of our friends worked at a French bank and he related to us how, in the last few days before the company went under, he and his workmates were told not to honor any requests from that company to borrow money.
I remember feeling deeply moved by his story so that I felt there was an archetypal pattern taking place that went beyond this relatively small circumstance. It is difficult to describe the feeling, but I felt beholding this archetype was pulling me into the future.
That evening, I had trouble sleeping, partly because of my jet lag, and partly due to a recurring vision that told me of an upcoming downfall in the U.S. economy that would basically collapse the market down dramatically. The visions kept recurring, and when I did get some shut-eye, my dreams echoed my visions entirely.
These visions may seem to be prophetic now, except they also told me to move a big chunk of my savings from Dollars to Euros, and that I had to do so immediately.
The Euro has since gone down, and had I opened an account at the time I was in Paris I would have lost quite a bit of money since the Euro was so strong at the time. The big hit on the U.S. economy did come to pass, however, or is still in the midst of materializing. But, it hit the entire world (as is logical). So, was there indeed any validity behind these visions that kept me awake that night?
According to the Ra Material, and various other spiritual circles, such channeled messages (if they were indeed channeled and not a product of the subconscious or the imagination) typically come from mixed sources; some sources are benevolent, some have negative intentions. Messages that begin accurate and informative can be hijacked by a source with bad intentions along the way that either predicts a doom-like scenario or provides a false prophecy to make one stumble. The proper way to channel is to ask the source a question that proves to you the purity of the source's intention.
I personally have very little channeling abilities so that even sustaining a specific contact is difficult. And thus, I am usually very skeptical of any future predictions that surface from within me, but I find them fascinating nonetheless because they do come true from time to time.
Having lost faith in the visions I had in Paris, I became confused when the stock market actually did fall recently. One morning while I was in an especially visionary state, I asked for visions concerning the future of the market. I got a very cartoon-like scene that I watched like a movie while I closed my eyes. Note that when I do receive a vision from a positive source that is illustrating a grave situation, it usually comes in a form that lightens the situation up so that it appears less serious and negative than one's typical reaction. Thus, a cartoon-like scenario was appropriate. Similarly, a vision from a positive source would report an upcoming difficult period as one of "growth and learning" rather than a period of "pain and darkness".
My cartoon-like vision began with a scene of a large, unmoving slab of rock that was being held up by several tall rocks. I later interpreted the slab of rock to depict the economy and the supporting rocks as the big 700 billion dollar bailout. I then saw the slab of rock fall down to the ground with a crash, meaning the bailout did not help, but upon hitting the floor, or ground zero, it immediately began to move on its own. Eventually, the rock started picking up speed and going uphill at a steady climb. The rock continued traveling uphill in a very stable manner, passing through forests and various types of vegetation until the vision finally ended.
If I were to take this vision seriously, I would expect that the market has yet to reach bottom, or from a positive standpoint, has yet to reach a level where it is grounded and sober so that it can start moving on its own without the overly volatile characteristics of loan-based securities trading. Now, do I feel confident enough to actually trade stocks on this expectation (such as purchase more gold and so on)? No, I do not. It is the psychological and archetypal observations which I find fascinating to watch as I scrutinize my predictions. If a vision were to come true, then the entirety of the vision would be used to collect clues that would illuminate one's current predicament.
This morning, I had more inner-scape data that suggested more economic downfall was on its way.
These last few months have been very busy with social activities and a heavy workload at my job. I have not been able to truly center myself enough that I have confidence in how I should proceed with my creative projects, a part of which is this blog. This weekend was my first three days off that I've had to myself for over three months, and so by this Monday morning, my subconscious and its function as a channel had finally become much more prominent and active.
While wading between sleep and wakefulness, my ears would ring, alternating back and forth between my left and right ear. For those familiar with the Ra Material, an important, if not paramount, aspect of the spiritual path is one's proclivity along the positive/negative polarity. Positive meaning service-to-others, negative meaning service-to-self. Polarizing in either direction comes with its own powerful charge, and I've learned to hone in on this charge in the positive direction to help me with my creative work.
One of the ways in which the subconscious or inner self can communicate one's position with respect to the positive/negative polarity is through the ringing of the ears, the right ear ringing means positive, the left ear negative. In most people, this could be random and simply a result of the health condition named tinnitus. In my case, I have deliberately asked my inner self to provide this ringing to help me measure my polarity, and the ringing comes about usually while lying in bed in contemplation/meditation, or when I'm about to do something unethical (left ear) or altruistic (right ear).
This morning, as is usually not the case, the ringing was predominately in my left ear, and I started getting concerned that these last three months of distractions have really derailed me off my path. I asked inwardly for help and a sense of direction.
When I fell back to sleep, I dreamed that I was reading the Ra Material and I reached a very important passage that told me I had to assume the stance of a hawk. I directly woke up and the internal push to visualize myself as a hawk seemed to persist. I instantly interpreted this to mean that I had to utilize my visionary powers to see into the future.
I then saw a cartoon image of half Tweetie the bird, half hawk and a muffled word was trying to surface: "rasdaq", "fandsak", "Nasdaq"! Then, the words "they will counterfeit the fall" (not sure what that means).
My attention wavered as I lay in bed, but whenever I thought of anything else than trying to see into the future of the stock market, the ringing in my ears would turn to the left ear. It would only ring in my right ear when I tried to see into the future. Nevertheless, nothing seemed to be working.
I seemed to get visions that encouraged me to visualize myself way up in the sky, so that I had a hawk's eye view of what's being going on in my life. I allowed my thoughts to waver while retaining some focus upon the future and my attention landed upon the song I had been working on the previous night (see below).
There was a section I was very meticulously working on for hours on end; it involved the beginning, introductory part of the song right before it was about to take off. The subsequent bulk of that song was very steady and unchanging, if not somewhat monotonous, and the initial opening was to be orchestrated just right so that the consciousness of the listener was prepared to appreciate the trance-like repetitiveness.
Then, in my half-dreamy state, it suddenly hit me that what I was really trying to do through my music was to meticulously mimic or reflect the specific archetypal pattern most closely expressed through that particular piece. It was my intuitive awareness of the archetypal pattern I was trying to reflect which allowed me to measure whether or not the introductory part of the song was appropriately orchestrated or not, whether it was finished or needed more work. And this particular pattern had to do with the setting up or preparation of a subsequent period of repetitious and steady rhythm and melody.
Suddenly switching back to the hawk's perspective, which can perhaps be more accurately described as a holographic perspective, I realized that the steady, monotonous section in my music actually corresponded to the steady climb of the slab of rock in my cartoon vision I had the other day, which depicted a very stable future elevating at a constant angle.
The intro section of my music, according to my hawk / half-awake / visionary perspective, was following the same archetypal pattern as the current phase in the stock market as it is going through its volatile period of adjustment. Composing the appropriate intro in my song, then, also functions as the short-term prediction of the current state of financial turmoil.
Now, you must be thinking: "Makram, have you gone nuts?!?" These kinds of ideas are hard to stomach, I know, but I truly believe that some pieces of music do indeed reflect archetypal patterns, and hence their power. Whether connecting the two particular patterns, stock market and my song, is indeed plausible is another question. The ability to see this demands a holographic perspective, with the ability to see all events as One, but also as different perspectives of the One. In fact, most of my predictions which have turned out true involved connecting the dots in this way, usually using my fiction or music.
In any case, my initial intro was one which led right up to the beginning of the repetitious section, flowing straight into it. But then, I realized this would not work, and there is now going to be, nay there has to be, a gap of silence before the beat starts. Which means, by the same logic, that there will very soon be a "blank market" period. What this means is open to interpretation; it may mean another hard crash, or simply things will be at a standstill as investors wait to see the market's reaction to the latest government efforts. Or, the absence denotes the government taking over the banks.
One rather haunting aspect of my story, is that the visions this morning specifically highlighted the final section of the intro, which had a sudden exaggerated peak in volume right before the abrupt drop into nearly a full second of silence. Similarly, the Dow shot up 11 percent today, "the biggest one-day rally since 1933", as was written in the article whose headline began with the words "Manic Monday". Indeed, this behavior is clearly a sign of a bipolar swing.
Another curious tidbit is that after I fell back to sleep I had an extremely violent nightmare of a father who was swinging his baby around in such a manner as to smash it against a window. Each time it crashed, the blood seemed more and more voluminous, its cries more haunting and disturbing. Whether the dream was influenced by an external negative source or not, it clearly denoted my own bipolar swing, a natural adherence to the laws of balance, and thus almost validating the positive nature of my earlier visions.
Well, I'll stop rambling now; this post is starting to get annoying to write. Here's the song I've been writing about, probably worth all these ideas put together times ten. Enjoy!